I cannot express the appreciation I have for this website and all the ladies on here. It helped me through some rough times.
Our journey started almost 2 years ago. I had been on BCP since I was 16. I will turn 36 next month. I've had PCOS for a long time. I remember my very fist Gyno appt the doc saying that my androgens were high, but not bad. Didn't know about PCOS until way later in life...I have no other symptoms of PCOS other than anovulatory cycles. When I went off of BCP I never got my period. We tried to induce ovulation through the use of provera, but we were never successful.
I had an HSG (OWEE, most painful experience ever!) and it turned out my right tube was blocked. Had LAP surgery to follow, and the doc couldn't tell why my tube was blocked, it didn't look distended, or diseased. It turned out that my body was producing mass amounts of estrogen (and no progesterone) so my lining just kept building and building and building, and when it couldn't take it anymore, I had the worse period EVER. I thought to myself "YES! I finally got my period on my own" But it wasn't an actual period, it was just the lining having no place to go. It turns out I had simple hyperplasia. Basically precancerous cells in my uterus. I had to go on progesterone for 3 months straight.
Then while I was on progesterone it was discovered that I was Hyperthyroidism. I was devastated, but it made sense. All those symptoms (pain attacks, having bowel movements every day, losing about 15 lbs in a little over 2 months). There was talk of taking radioactive iodine, that would push me back 6 months to a year on TTC. Turns out that I just had an inflammation of the thyroid gland. It went Hyper, then Hypo and then cooled off. WHAT A RELIEF!
Next step was my hysteroscopy. I had a couple of very small polyps and they were removed and I was given the green light! The constant ups and downs of this crazy roller coaster were so exhausting.
Started on clomid 50mg in April, my follies only got to about 10mm. Devastated. Next month we up'd to 100mg, follies only got to 12mm. Another blow. I knew in my heart that 150mg would not work. I did the math, there was no way that this dosage would get my follies to 18-20mm.
BUT we tried anyway. Sure enough last month I was able to produce 2 follies (one from both sides (L) 16 and (R) 22 E2 measured 473 day of trigger). RE's office waited for my natural surge and I triggered on CD17 and had back to back IUI's. Hubs sperm was only 5m the first day but 16m the next day. About 4 hours after my first IUI I had this tremendous pressure in my lower abdomen. Turned out that was me O'ing. I've never O'd before so I didn't know what to expect. RE said it was the fluid escaping from my follies when they burst. I thought I was constipated. My blood test fell on a Wednesday and I couldn't wait all day with knowing it was neg or pos and not being able to tell my hubby face to face, so we took a HPT 12DPIUI, negative. Blood test confirmed it. Another fail and more disappointment. I was on progesterone suppositories in my 2ww. I kept track of all my symptoms (I have since thrown them out, because I resigned myself to just letting it be the next time). Plus, the progesterone supps can mimic pregnancy symptoms. But I will give you what I had.... Tired, Hungry, Peeing a lot, Crampy. I LOVED THE PROGESTERONE, it made me sleep soooooo good. Knocked me out like a drug.
Our 2nd IUI fell on 9/7 and 9/8. Same protocol. I had 3 follies. My left side seems to cluster, so it's always hard to tell if there are multiple follies or just one. But they think I had two on my left and one on my right. I don't remember the measurements, but I think they were each about 18 or 19mm. E2 the day before was 368. Again wait for a nature surge, and triggered at 6:30pm Friday. Saturday was our first IUI, and about 8 or 9pm at night I had that pressure again in my abdomen. Real low down, very heavy. I loved that I knew what it was. I felt like my body was broken, but to know that it was doing what it was suppose to do was FANTASTIC! Followed up with 2nd IUI on Sunday. Hubs sperm was 53M first time, and ......wait for it.....wait for it....droll roll please..... 71 freaking million the 2nd day. WTH. Even the nurse was shocked. She said that usually the count goes down the 2nd day. Hubs was pretty proud of himself. I told the nurses he was packing heat...Started my progesterone supps the night of my 2nd IUI.
Same symptoms, but I didn't write them down on what days they occurred, and I was attributing them to the Prog supps. But there were some clues now....I was sleeping like crap! Utter Crap! I was so disappointed, because I was looking forward to a good 2 weeks of sleeping well. Then (I don't know what days, and I'm pretty sure it was like 2 days) I would get these muscle spasms really bad on my left side. I thought it was my ovary. With having PCOS I get cramping on both sides of my ovaries throughout my cycle, my GYNO said it is just the little cysts on my ovaries bursting.... But this was a bad spasm. Especially when I would lay on my back at night. I couldn't lay on my back. I actually pressed my fingers where I thought the pain was and it was more near my left hip bone, not where my ovary would be. SO of course I googled it and it came up with Round Ligament Pain. I know it says that it only happens in 2nd trimester, but I truly feel that my cramping uterus must have put some pressure on that ligament and that is what I was feeling. My boobs were never sore. In fact I think I've only experienced sore boobs once in my lifetime. I thought for sure I was out. I decided on Wednesday night that I was going to email my RE to see what the steps were for IVF, because I knew this time didn't work. I woke on Thursday (yesterday 9/19) 12DPIUI, just like last month and took a test. It was digital and it said "PREGNANT" within 1 minute. I was shocked. I made an appt with my RE yesterday, had blood drawn and it was confirmed....I AM PREGNANT. HGC - 74 at 12DPIUI and P4 at 32. I cannot believe it. I can't even fathom that what I've read about all these years, on conception and eggs and sperm and blah blah blah, actually took place in my body. In the past I would say that if I ever got pregnant I would think it was a miracle. But I know that is not the truth. There is nothing special about me. LIFE in general is a miracle. Any pregnancy is a miracle. With what we know as TTC sisters, all the timing and how things have to be just right....How can it not be a miracle for EVERY woman. I am in shock and awe. I can't wait to have the first sonogram to have "proof" of what is actually occurring inside of me.
I have no words of wisdom for you ladies. I'm not going to say that it will happen in all good time, I won't patronize you with those words. I have no words at all. It is truly a miracle.
Tomorrow I will be 4 weeks, but I am over the moon. I pray that no other woman has to go through infertility, but I know it is prevalent and I know it is not going away. No one should have to go through this. Thank you for letting me share.